It has been a long time since I did some updating on my blog so here is one to toast to the New Year. It has been an exciting and eventful year with the big O level and a lot of fun with church and friends. This year flew by so quickly! I still remember getting worried for the first day of school and now, I am awaiting my O level results.

I always make it a point to do some self reflection at the end of the year in hopes that I will be a better person in the next year so here goes… I believe I have been a rude daughter to my dad :( It is probably because I can’t stand him making comments on my appearance especially when I won’t associate him to being very close to me(as compared to my mum). So, I end up throwing the defensive stance and hit back bad remarks about him. The worst is that both of us are stubborn and hot-headed, so we do get into big fights quite often. I vividly recall us not talking to each other for about a month until he threatened to stop all my tuition and forced me into apologizing. During graduation day, I wrote him a letter, promising to change. I really had the mind to change when I wrote it but change is not something one can do easily. I could not help myself from quarrelling with him. One hurtful remark he said in front of my whole family was that “ I bet she just wrote that for fun and didn’t mean it”. I was angry, hurt and sad then. I understand I felt all those because I love him. So, I promise to be a more filial and respectful daughter this year.

This year was especially memorable because I forged very deep ties with my friends. Genevieve, Su lynn, Charis, Samantha have all become part of my life and I am thankful for them. Charis is my best friend and I enjoy every moment spent with her. I love how she always manages to brighten my mood and I can’t imagine secondary 4 without her. Su lynn, being the smart one, always helps me in my studies and I really appreciate her help one day before O level geography exam. I sms-ed her then, telling her I can’t remember all the facts (prob because I didn’t touch geog throughout the year!) and she called me immediately to do last minute revision. Believe it or not, I came out of the exam hall the next day, ecstatic over the paper because I believe I faired well. Wanna know my real results? Wait till Monday for the release of results! Genevieve is the one that I feel I can relate to most of the time. I believe we are quite alike deep down because we both have a fre-enemy and we both are very competitive. Difference? She is a nicer person than me. Haha, I can’t believe I admitted that. Well, she is definitely more generous than me ^^ Samantha Samantha… She is very soft-spoken and delicate. Always being very sensitive to what people says or feels about her and thus, becoming the easiest to tease. During this year end holiday, we have bonded closer due to us working together. I saw different sides of her while working and being the most I see out of all my friends, I tend to communicate more with her. If I could have a choice, I would want to let all 4 of us attend the same JC so that we can remain close.

Recently, I came back from Thailand for a holiday. I went with my relatives(Ah yong’s family) and it is probably why this trip is OTT (: I was with Jolin 24/7 till my dad labelled us as lovers >.< haha. I guess because we are of the same age, we are the closest. I realised so many things about my extended family and the one that shocked me the most was that my maternal grandfather had a mistress and a child( my uncle I never met). I was appalled but as he doesn’t know that I know about this secret, I can’t confront him. If you’re asking why I did not confront him, well, I believe everyone has some secret. Even I do. And I want to keep it to myself, forever. Let him go, my inner voice says. So yes, I am letting go. This trip definitely made me closer to my relatives and I am grateful to God for blessing with me such great cousins (:

Now that my secondary 4 year is over, I know someone that I will miss the most. Teacher Gina. She has taught me since the start of secondary 2 and she is a great teacher. Very dedicated in her work and being so caring, I will never forget her. I haven’t seen her for a while now and already , I am missing her and her lessons. My mathematics marks soared under her help and I will thank her sincerely for that. She is getting married soon (congrats) and I feel so happy for her. She showed me her wedding photo shoot pics and boy, isn’t she pretty ^^ I wish her all the best.

Now that the New Year is beginning, I wish for a better year ahead. I know that God gave me this year so that I can do something meaningful. I will not waste any time and live my life to the fullest. To you whom I want to thank for finishing reading my post, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Love, xinhui.