Sorry Cezanne
Sorry Melissa Foo
Sorry Clara
Sorry Nicole Seow
Sorry Nga Wai
Sorry Dorothy

I made 6 people cry today. I feel it is my fault. If I had not asked Melissa Foo to say sorry, no one will be crying. No one. I wanted to help. Really. Cezanne got mad, Melissa got mad. They are not angry now but I feel useless. Cezanne is my good friend, but I can’t do anything. It will only make things worse. THE END. I decided. I am NOT doing it anymore. I am not going to do anything anymore. No more passing message, no more persuading. No more crying. I will stop. If you see this, Stop too. Stop asking me for help. I can only listen. But is a listening ear enough? I hate this moment. I cannot do anything. I can only listen. That’s all Xin Hui can do.

I am not happy anymore. I don’t know what jokes to crack now. People like me for who I pretend to be, not the one I want to be but they all don’t know. Desiree knows, shi-ning knows, cezanne knows and lastly Nga wai. They talk to me and listen to me. All the others don’t. they never did.

Kellie wongxinhui :(