My mum is working from home. She has set up a working space for herself and has changed the orientation of my dining table. It is cool though. Although it is messy, but she has promised to tidy up little by little everyday. Yesterday was teacher’s day celebration mass so yes, half day of school. I gave a letter to Ms Lee but no reply or anything. Ms Lee, did you receive my letter?

My class will be singing a hymn on one of these days when school reopens. My group has chosen the song, Thank you Lord. So embarrassing. I received back my report book yesterday and I failed 3 subjects, Geography, Mathematics and visual arts. It is all in the 45-50 marks range. My lowest subject was arts, 46.5. However, I got 3 As. Chinese, English and History or was it literature? Whatever.

I will be quitting tuition soon. Am I happy? I don’t know. I like taking late bus rides but a hundred over dollars for it is so NOT worth it. Si ying and my relationship is getting from bad to worse. I don’t know whether it’s just me or is it real. She is just my recess buddy and class partner now. We don’t talk much nowadays, why? Angeline should be happy about this. She has got herself a best friend. Perhaps I should let go of si ying, and then just accompany myself. I wish I had got into ¼. At least Elizabeth and Amanda will be my friend. Si ying just follows me whenever she realizes she doesn’t have anyone else to turn to. It is really upsetting sometimes to know that the so-called best friend I have is only using me as a lifeboat. I sound like a loner. I guess I am. I can’t take it anymore. I just wish I did better in my psle. Maybe 1/1 or ½ class will have a space for me. I hate my friends. I don’t care about them anymore. I once counseled myself that maybe I will just live my own life but friends are important in my life now. I can’t lose them but what is there for me to lose when I haven’t even gained anything? I am such a goner.

Kellie wongxinhui :(